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Just kind of… meh

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Good afternoon, just me again getting back into my old blogging routine. When I did my GearBunch pants review, I never really gave an excuse for being absent. I feel like I typically don’t. Besides the point, I was also thinking about what my self-love post should be for February since I said I wanted to continue writing them since I and all of you loved reading them. This is not necessarily a self-love per say, more like a self-realization post and calling myself out on some things that I do quite often and sort of just getting thoughts out on google docs I suppose.

I’ve been bad recently. Really bad. Mentally. I’ve been decent physically by working out, eating right (most of the time), drinking water, and otherwise. My sleep schedule not so great but I’m in college what do you expect?

I’m really struggling so much mentally right now and I have no idea who I can talk to about it. Like I feel like none of my friends I’m close enough to say that I’m struggling (or we’re in weird places and I just don’t know yet) and my family doesn’t really care so I’m just putting it all out here.

I don’t want sympathy or pity comments I just don’t know how else to share what I’m feeling other than by writing typing it out.

I’ve been crying a lot recently. A lot. Like every other day. I’ve also been keeping to myself more, seeing fewer people, spending more time in my room, cooped up, etc.

I’m struggling because I can’t tell if I’m unhappy or depressed. Like do I hate OU, do I have no friends, am I struggling to find a purpose? OR are my little brain molecules back to not producing? I  really can’t tell. I think it’s the latter because I have friends, and things I enjoy (not recently) and I love Ohio, but I’m just not sure about anything right now.

I want to go to therapy or something (my roommate and I talked about both of us going but she’s been really different this semester so I don’t know), but therapy doesn’t work for me because I lie and then my therapist thinks I’m fine and then sends me on my merry way.

I just really need someone in my life to be like ‘hey you’re going to be okay, you’ve got this’ but I truly don’t see that happening anytime soon.

So, in advance, if my posting is shitty in the coming weeks, I apologize, but I’m doing my best and right now I’m putting 1000% of my energy to getting out of bed, going to class, and getting work done and when there’s extra energy for seeing my friends, going to the gym, and blogging you’ll have a post.

I hope this all made sense

❤ Alicia ❤

Review: Gearbunch Leggings

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Happy Friday everyone, sorry about my absence. I’ve been busy with midterms and job applications but here I am. It is currently pouring outside and I have a class in 2 hours. So,  I figured I would write a bit to pass the time.

A few weeks back, I was contacted by the company GearBunch, a company that specializes in custom leggings and other various customized apparel. Their prices range for leggings from about $85- $120. Gearbunch was lovely enough to send me a pair of leggings to review! So, that’s just what I’ll be doing today!

I received the Black and White Mandala leggings from Gearbunch (different from the B&W Mandala leggings which is what I thought I asked for haha), which are white with black print (as opposed to the other which is black with white print with a different design).

P.S. I apologize in advance for not using my own photos. My camera is doing this thing where NONE of the pictures are clear (unless they’re super close up) so bear with me.

 

First, let me say that I am normally an all black leggings kinda gal or like a little bit of mesh on the side and call it a day. These leggings are the complete opposite. With intricate designs (mine were probably one of the most simple designs they had) of all shapes and colors their website just makes you want to get creative. I definitely do like the patterns available and might start branching out and trying other patterned leggings in the future!

Anyway, these leggings are so comfy, sort of squat proof (I did 2 squats, one with black underwear and one with like a light purple and the black ones were a bit visible which was expected since they are white pants but the pair with the purple were not but I never wear black underwear with leggings anyway just in case), and super cute!

The only negative thing I have about these is that the inseam on the legs is done really simply. I always appreciate a sturdy inseam on leggings especially when they’re super expensive because on some of my cheaper leggings they tend to rip at the thighs which is so sad ++ I would HATE for that to happen to some more expensive leggings. Obviously, I can’t say that will happen as I have only worn them twice but it does make me a tad nervous that it might happen in the future.

Note the thin inseam

All in all, I am a huge fan of these leggings! I was a bit hesitant on the white but they have definitely grown on me! I wore them to yoga last week and a lot of people asked where I got them from. So, Gearbunch, hope I got you some new customers and thank you for the leggings!

I would definitely recommend checking them out sometime!

Check out my 3 favorite pairs (1 2 3)

Are you more of a simple leggings person or are you all for designs??

❤ Alicia ❤

A guide to my February horoscope

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Afternoon everyone, one of my favorite things to do is check my horoscope. I don’t really believe that astrology is a thing but it’s always cool to look at and to see if what the stars predict actually happens. So, let’s take a look at my horoscope for the day, week, month, and year!!

Feb 9, 2018 – Your ability to concentrate will be enhanced today, Gemini. If you have studying or detailed work to tend to, this will be an opportune time to get to it. Hobbies that require a lot of focus may also strike your fancy. Even if a herd of stampeding elephants runs through your space, you aren’t likely to lose your concentration. Pull out your most intensive tasks and have a great day.

This better happen because I have a huge lecture (6 hours) happening later and I need to concentrate as much as I can. I’m also going to try to get some homework and get to the gym after that so let’s hope. Will update later

Feb 5, 2018 – Feb 11, 2018 – Are you looking for adventure? If so, this week’s backdrop could coincide with an encounter with someone who has an engaging idea. They may suggest a trip or an opportunity to explore new ideas or traverse fresh terrain. On another note, getting support from someone for an idea of yours can be crucial to having the confidence to go ahead. Be sure to talk to him or her about it. Finally, as lovely Venus enters Pisces and your career sector on Saturday, you may find that charm is the key to progress.

Well, I applied for 2 jobs this week and interviewed for one so I REALLY hope the job thing is true. Not too many adventures for me though sooooo

February 2018 – This month has no full moon, but February 1 is the day after one and February 28 is the day before one. Expect people to be energized and emotionally engaged at the beginning and end of the month. For the new moon (and solar eclipse) on the fifteenth, your world could get bigger and give you more room to move and breathe. It might be time to finally start something special that you’ve been putting off. It won’t be a matter of money that has been delaying you. You could see a dream come true when Mercury conjoins Neptune on February 25.

I think that’s so cool that February has no full moon. On the 15th I’m actually doing yoga with a group of girls so maybe that will give me even more room to breathe as well.

2018- Welcome to bustling, beautiful 2018, Gemini! You’ll have the chance to connect with more people and engage in more new situations as never before. It’s also a year for you to start many new projects and begin exploring new avenues in life. On the day before the sun enters Gemini, Venus enters charming, popular Cancer. Mars has just entered big-thinking, clear-headed Aquarius, and Uranus has just entered methodical, materialistic Taurus. Expect 2018 to bring you improvements and some changes of direction in your social life and career. You could step into a new world.

I have been excited for 2018 especially considering 2017 was so phenomenal. I’m really hoping there are some great changes for my social life and career. Let’s see and I may update this at the end of the month!!!

Do you guys believe in Astrology? Why or why not???

❤ Alicia ❤

90 self-love quotes

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Hi all. Just because my challenge is over doesn’t mean my self-love journey is. During my 31 days of self-love challenge, I got numerous emails from people asking if they could also partake in the challenge and other things to do with self-love. One of the emails I got was from a lovely lady named Emma, and it was a link to 90 self-love quotes. I appreciated them so much and I hope that you all do too! Be sure to check out the link for all 90 but here are some of my favorites!

P.S. If you scroll down to the bottom of the page there is a little tidbit on how to practice self-love! So helpful!!

❤ Alicia ❤

February goals

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Happy February everyone! Crazy that we are already 1/12 of the way through 2018. Anyways, most months I like to start off by sharing a few goals I have, whether that be drinking water or something school related. Here are my goals for February

  1. Go to everyone CHAARG event (if my schedule permits)- 2 times a week is all, it’s just getting the motivation to go!
  2. Make a list of every assignment I have that’s due before Spring Break  so I can start getting head- I did this last semester for the last month of school and it helped so much knowing exactly what I had to do for every class but I think it would be too overwhelming to make one for the rest of the year, so until Spring Break for now
  3. Pick up more shifts at work!- I’m trying to have no shifts during finals and then take off another before Spring break but to do that without getting strikes, I need to pick quite a few shifts.
  4. Drink 64 oz of water- This is on here every month and it’s just a reminder!
  5. KILL my interview I have next week- I applied to be an RA on campus next fall and I got to the interview stage! I have my interview in a week from today so I’m terrified but excited!
  6. Read one book- As mentioned in my 2018 intentions, my intention is to read one book per month!
  7. Less screen time that isn’t for school!- I feel like I’m glued to my phone or computer all the time and I really want that to change
  8. Workout every single day- Whether it’s for CHAARG, yoga, a walk, or the gym, I want to do something

Those are my goals for the month of February. What are yours?

❤ Alicia ❤

January reflection

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Good afternoon all, hard to believe the month of January is over. This month feels like it was 5 seconds long, especially since classes started. It’s been an interesting month. From starting this new semester to my self-love challenge, and just being a very busy bee.

Normally at the beginning of each month, I make a list of goals I have for the month (my Feb goals will be live tomorrow) however, with the new year I just made my list of 2018 intentions. So, let’s see how I’m doing on my 2018 intentions so far!

 

EVERY DAY
> 1 hour of journaling//meditation//reading-  I suck. I’ve been doing okay at writing but the only reading I’ve been doing is my homework. So, I’m still reading and learning but nothing pleasurable so I need to work on that.
> 64 oz of water- I’m trying my best but I don’t think I get 64 oz. Most days I get 40 oz or so but I need to work on getting 64 or more
> Exercise: whether that be the gym, yoga, a walk, etc.- I’ve discussed my gym anxiety recently, but I have been going on walks and taking the long way to and from class so I’m getting moving!

EVERY WEEK
> Coffee//Lunch//Workout with someone… Ideally, a different person per week- It definitely hasn’t been a different person each week but I have been getting lunch and working out with people, usually, 2-3 per week which is good!!
> Write: My goal is to write weekly, maybe 3 times- Well this month I wrote every damn day! Next month though I’m going to cool it down a bit to have more lengthy and content-filled posts so I think 3 times a week is a goal for me next month!

EVERY MONTH
> Read one book: I read a book this past weekend. The 4 Agreements. It was super good, and next month I want to read the sequel. Might review it sometime this month once I’ve read book 2!
> Discover a new podcast series: I definitely didn’t do this one this month. I think it’s because of my constant writing and getting into the groove of school. If any of you have podcast recommendations, let me know!!!

How did you guys do on your goals this month?

❤ Alicia ❤

31 days of self-love challenge: Day 31

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Wow, here we are. 31 days later. I’ve talked about great things about myself, not so great things about me, goals for myself, and so much more. It’s been a very eye-opening 31 days and I’ve loved posting about self-love, learning about myself, and reading your comments as you followed me along with this challenge. I hope some of you do this challenge as well and if you do tag me in a post or 2 so I can see what you’ve said along your way! If you want a list of all the prompts, here is a link to the prompt for each day!

Going forward, how can you commit to loving yourself every day?

There are a few ways I’ve thought of to love myself every day. The first one is to journal. I want to write about a good thing that happened to me each day to show that my life is actually pretty decent. I always say I’m going to do this and never do… so I have backups.

The next way I’m going to commit to loving myself every day is by picking out one part of myself that I love EVERY SINGLE DAY. Whether it be something about my body, mind, or otherwise, there is so much to love about myself, I just have to find out what it is.

The final way I want to commit to loving myself is to start posting more self-love posts here. I got AMAZING feedback from this challenge from so many of you and I know I loved it so I want to start writing about self-love more. This one won’t be something that happens daily but maybe weekly or monthly. We’ll see.

Thanks for following me on my self-love challenge, I can’t wait to see how all of yours go.

❤ Alicia ❤

31 days of self-love challenge: Day 30

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What labels (negative and positive) do you assign yourself?

I’ve been thinking long and hard about this prompt and it’s been killing me. I never knew how many labels there are and how many I’ve assigned myself, even just for a short period of time. I hate labels if I’m being honest so I like that this really made me think about all of the ones I assign myself (and other people). It’s human nature to categorize but it can terribly mean how we categorize certain people. Anyway, on to my labels.

Positive Labels:

  1. Smart- I’ve always been decently good in school and I made Dean’s List last semester so I think It’s acceptable to use this one
  2. Funny– I’m always the friend who makes everyone laugh, with memes, bad jokes, and puns flying out of my mouth soooo I give myself this label
  3. Personable– This is not really something I think I am, but everyone always tells me I am. Even if I just met someone I can usually find something to talk to them about and make them less comfortable (I attribute this to my literal hatred of silence around new people so I’ll find ANYTHING I can to talk a bit)
  4. Strong- By this I mean physically and mentally, due to a lot of things but take it as you will.
  5. Liberal– Take this one how you will as well, some might believe this to be negative… if you do I’m sorry.

Negative Labels:

  1. Lazy– Everyone has those ‘lazy days’ but unless your last lazy day has lasted for the past 5 years… I don’t know what to tell you
  2. Annoying– I always feel like I talk too much and am the most annoying person ever and I literally won’t talk to people first because I feel like I’m being annoying.
  3. Awkward– Like I mentioned when I talk about being personable, I hate silence and I feel like my constant conversation starting and inability to make eye contact makes me awkward but who knows?
  4. Cocky– I brag a lot about dumb things sometimes and I feel like I’m cocky when it comes to things. Maybe I’m not.
  5. Crazy– Just sort of mentally on some things I don’t know.

I probably could have gone on and on for negative labels ( 😦  ) but I’ll stop there because I wanted them to be equal. Moving forward, I’m going to work on more positive labels for myself and embracing my flaws without labeling myself as bad for them!

What labels do you assign yourselves??

Alicia

31 days of self-love challenge: Day 29

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What words or beliefs do you (want to) live your life by?

In my 2018 intentions post, I posted a few quotes that I wanted my 2018 to go by, however, I really want to live past 2018 by them as well. Here they are again as well as a little snippet as to why I have chosen them.

“She designed a life she loved” I discovered this quote during the summer of 2016. During that summer, I took a much needed break from social media AND dropped a lot of negative people from my life. I like this because I needed to create a life that I loved and because of this quote. I have been actively trying to do just that.
> “I just really want to be the warm yellow light that pours all over everyone I love” This is something I have also always wanted to do. I love making people happy and I really hope that my actions reflect my goal of making others around me happy. There is something so rewarding about seeing others smile because of you and I just hope that I can make as many people happy, even for the smallest amount of time, as I can.
> “You just have to surround yourself with people that have the same heart as you” Something I tend to do is to try and fix people. I know how hard it is going through shit and I want to help others and hope they do the same in return. Most of the time, however, it doesn’t work that way. I need to surround myself with people who put in effort in relationships and who can put in 100% when I can’t (because I do the same because that’s how relationships work) and it’s a struggle for me because I really try to see the best in people and it can totally backfire for me. It’s hard to tell especially at first how they’ll fit (if at all) into your life and I just really need to listen to my gut to see if certain people are worth keeping around or if I may be better off not starting things or removing them from my life ASAP

What words do you want to live by?

Alicia

31 days of self-love challenge: Day 28

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Who are your role models and what qualities do you share with them?

I am not really a big fan of the whole role model thing if I’m being honest. To me, a role model entails that there is a person (or people) we want to be like. And if I’m being honest, I don’t want to be like anyone. I am myself and that’s all I want to be. There are bits of other people I like and would like to base myself off of, but nothing too notable.

However, if I did have to pick a role model, it would most certainly be Marilyn Monroe. I have been obsessed with her since I was in 8th grade when people told me I looked like her when my hair was curled. I have her on post-its, purses, wallets, posters, and I have quotes of hers all over everything. I think I look up to her because she was an incredible actress, human rights activist, and person in general but people just remembered her for her looks. She knew this, yet she kept doing what she loved.

What qualities do I share with Marilyn? We both struggle(d) with some mental things, however, we perservere(d) through as best that we could. We are (were) both loving, caring, individuals. We both want(ed) to change the world. We believe(d) in equal rights for all. There are also some things about her that I want to be still, such as more confident and wealthy (kidding sort of) and I’m slowly working on both of those things.

Who are your role models or do you not have any?

Alicia

If we were having coffee

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Good afternoon all. Whenever I don’t post for a while or it’s nothing about my life, I like to make ‘life update’ posts. However, I saw that Jamie and a few others write posts called “If we were having coffee” and I thought it was genius. So, instead of my ‘life update’ posts I figured I would write something like that. So, grab a cup of coffee, sit back, and hear about my life as of late.

If we were having coffee… I’d tell you that all of these self-love posts (and your comments) have been making me feel amazing! I’ve been feeling pretty positive and have been loving myself more than ever! Still, have a long way to go, but as I’ve said before… baby steps!

If we were having coffee… I would tell you about how my spring semester is in full swing. It’s been great catching up with all of my friends from last semester and getting back into the groove of things. Homework and projects have been a lot already but I’m enjoying all of my classes and all of the learning!

If we were having coffee… I would tell you that I’ve been really working on my fitness this month. I haven’t been to the gym every single day or not eaten chocolate at all, but I’m really working. I’ve been feeling great and even though my anxieties about the gym are in full swing as always, I’m getting in workouts (gym or home) when I can.

If we were having coffee… I’d ask you if you believed in global warming. It’s 50 degrees here in Athens today and in my honest opinion, it shouldn’t be this warm. It’s January and I’ve been outside in leggings and a sweatshirt. I want to know if you believe in global warming or if it’s fake news created by the Chinese.

And if we were having coffee… I would ask how your day is going or tell me something that you love about yourself (in the spirit of my challenge). So let me know! 🙂

Alicia

31 days of self-love challenge: Day 27

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What’s one choice you can make right now that your future self will thank you for?

I think a choice that I can make that my future self will thank me for is to work hard. I’m not just talking about school work or one specific thing. I think in general, for everything in my entire life I need to work hard. Obviously breaks are great, and usually much needed, however, I need to work my butt off at everything I do to achieve a life I love and deserve.

Whether it be with school, work, extracurriculars, and my social life, and heck even blogging, I need to work really hard at all of these things.

For school, my future self will thank me for working hard because I will graduate college and hopefully come out of school with a job offer (or more),  and then I’ll be able to start a nice life doing something that I love.

For work I need to work hard because through work I can move up which will look nice on my resume, and if I am a hard worker and exhibit a lot of great worker qualities i can get my superiors to write me letters of recommendation for jobs, scholarships, and honors societies.

In my extracurriculars my future self will thank me for working hard because I can get leadership positions in these clubs which will look good on my resume and will get me leadership experience which everyone needs and is good to build yourself. I can also make friends and connections in these groups as well, which is nice to know people and help you get opportunities in the future.

In my social life I need to work hard, because as I’ve mentioned, I can be a crappy friend on occasion (who can’t). I need to work hard to maintain my friendships with those I love and make new friends in my future.

And finally, in blogging I need to work hard for a couple of reasons: the biggest one being that I love blogging and being able to see the progress I make in my writing and blogging skills is always nice to look back on. I also would love to have my blog grow more and what i start now will pay off later on, which I’m certain my future self will also be thankful for.

What choices can you all make now that you’;; thank yourself for in the future??

Alicia

31 days of self-love challenge: Day 26

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What parts of yourself are you ashamed of?

Well, this one is also decently tough. I have a very weird body image of myself and I’m assuming since the question says ‘parts’ that it means parts of the body. I really don’t like the word ashamed here. My body is a great thing. I can walk, run, lift heavy objects, and I’m not in pain (unless it’s my knee but that’s another story). Because of that, I know my body is amazing and does some really great things like keep me alive and allows me to do the things I love.

However, there definitely are some parts of my body I don’t always necessarily love. And I would have to say that those would probably be my thighs, stomach, and smile. Thighs and stomach are pretty self-explanatory as most girls people aren’t too fond of these body parts in general. My smile, on the other hand, is one that I don’t think is too common for people to not like. I used to really like my smile but it’s like sort of crooked (some people like but I can’t stand haha0 and like I hate that my upper lip is basically non existent when I smile sometimes because a lot of people make fun of people with smiles like that on twitter which makes me, even more, self-conscious about it than I already was… but yeah those are my 3 biggest things on my body I don’t necessarily like all the time

Alicia

31 days of self-love challenge: Day 25

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 What things are you really good at?

These ones over the past week have been getting more and more difficult for me. Obviously, that’s a good thing because it gets you thinking, but damn writing these are hard.

I think some things that I’m good at would be

  • Writing
  • Doing my eyebrows (my sister says I’m good at makeup in general but I really don’t believe it)
  • Bullshitting essays (I’m not proud of this acquired skill but I have it so…)
  • Taking pictures
  • Being a good dog mom
  • Making smoothies (work paid off)
  • Working with kids (or corralling them at least)
  • Speaking Spanish
  • making vine references
  • Making people laugh
  • Falling asleep anywhere (literally, I’m not kidding you should have seen me in Peru)

What are you guys good at??

Alicia

31 days of self-love challenge: Day 24

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What’s something you wish someone would say to you?

Hmmm, this one is a bit difficult because I think there a few things I wish someone would say to me. I’m going to go with my top 2.

I think the thing I need to hear most is “you are needed.” Everyone needs to hear this yet people rarely do. I really don’t have an explanation for this one but when life gets tough and shit hits the fan and you start to question your worth, it’s always good to be reassured by someone.

Another thing I wish someone would tell me is “I’m proud of you.” My entire life good grades have been expected of me. I got straight As for a long time and each time I would bring a report card home and the letter was a B or even an A- sometimes, I’d always get “why isn’t this an A?” There are 6 other As on my report card and they’re focused on my ONE B. I don’t know. My junior and senior year of high school I went through a lot mentally and my grades went down (nothing below a C thank god… but I did get a C…). My parents didn’t say anything but you could tell they were disappointed. It sucks because I was still trying my hardest but As were always expected so anything less was pretty much unacceptable. Whenever my parents and grandparents would talk to me (especially now) it’s ALWAYS “how are grades?” Now, I’m not trying to say that grades are unimportant but there are more important things than a 4.0. It just sucks because my bust my ass In every single class I take and it really goes unnoticed and the only things that are noticed are what aren’t perfect. I made Dean’s List this semester and I got a congratulations but it was expected of me, so it didn’t seem genuine. I just wish that someone (besides my roommate who sees me studying literally every single day) would notice the hard work that I put in and that the grades I get are because of how hard I work day in and day out.

What do you wish someone would say to you? (I’m very curious about this one so please tell me haha)

Alicia